wow. i've been a deviant for 2 years now. thats amazing.
and i have 1500 page views.
i feel like i should have more, but i dont know. maybe its because im not the most amazing photographer/poet out there, and i dont upload things on a daily basis (though i wish both of those were true). but i'm atleast content with how i stand in the dA community. i just hope that i eventually rise up some. i want like hella people to comment on almost every deviation i submit and stuff. anyways...

over the summer i kept to my promise and i check my dA on a semi-daily basis now. like 4-6 times a week. also i lost the cable to connect my camera to the computer so thats why i havnt uploaded any new photos, but last week my mom found it! yee! i have some photos i want to upload,but first i want to take them to school and use the school computers photoshop to edit them and make em all nice n purty for yall.
i dont have a photo class though, as i believe i said in a previous journal. makes me sad...but im going to try and get out there and take photos anyways because i love it. i just wish i wasnt so god damn lazy!

my most recent poem i submited (let the blood flow free part 2) is based on kinda (but not exactly) how i've been feeling this past month. two of my friends have been pissing me off for personal reasons and its just really frustarting. i feel kinda disapointed because it seems the only good poems i write is when im upset about something.

i got a job!!!
i work at Tillys near my old highschool, i start nov 12th. minimum wage though. and i dont have my hours yet though.

im also in 3 dungeons and dragons groups. im a player in one, which im thinking of quiting because the dungeon master sucks, and im just not having fun. and im a dungeon master for another group that i'll be starting on sunday, im trying to think of an epic adventure to put them in. most of them are n00bs though, and new to the game so i dont think it'd be too hard to please them. and the 3rd group im going to be a DM for. currently we dont have a set date, and it's probably just going to be a one time adventure, unless they all really enjoy it and want to play again, then i might continue the campaign.

i think im kinda changing a little bit. im starting to read mangas more often, watching less TV, playing less videogames, trying to eat healthier, liking some of my friends less and others more. yea.

OH!!! i got ym red belt in karate! and my black gi jacket! so now im officially an instructor! i sued to be an assistant instructor, but now im a full-fledged INSTRUCTOR BITCH!!!!!! D
when i was younger i always said my goal is to atleast get my green belt before i quit. and i realized last week, ive gone above and beyond that goal. i feel really proud of myself. but really, i want my blackbelt. which i probably wont get that for ATLEAST another 2 years. i think my head instructor hinted next time i train i'd go straight for my brown belt. i hope so, because if i only train for my 3rd stripe, there's no new material for me to learn. and liam, molly, spence, and becca and cynthia all already have their brown belts. i actually think becca is going to test for her black soon. im really happy for her that she's making such a big accomplishment.